Broken Heart
Not having friends, I think, has a lot to do with my being heartbroken. “Friends to Lovers” used to be something I thought was a good idea, so I explored it. Well, in the end, I lost the friend and the lover. An especially painful case involved losing a friend, and all the friends in common, because, as I realized too late, they were not my friends, but his, and I just happened to walk in one day. They’ve known each other for most of their lives, if not since birth. I stood no chance. The only one who reminded my friend was somebody I knew before I met the rest. There’s no going back to being “just friends.” That was another painful lesson to learn. Limiting beliefs: Male friends always want to get into your pants, unless they’re gay; but if they’re gay, why would they want to be around you? Society rejection if you don’t have a partner. Men want sex. I trigger people. I’m either too much or just because I am me, I trigger them. ~~~~~~~~ The teacher says my...