Think Better Thoughts
What does that mean? A while ago, I decided that I deserved better. Well, actually, I discovered. How I got to this point is a long story, one that is not filled with common sense from the point of view of a normal person because those three little words are part of common sense, but not lived as such. I always thought that my life was going to be lived as “designed” by the powers that decided everything else. For example, my father. It made sense. He decided what I would study in college, no questions asked, not to me anyway; he was the one paying, and I lived under his roof, so he decided. I had no say in the matter. After a period of revolting against the idea, and living a double life which was exciting, but exhausting, I settled down and decided to follow the orders and give up. I became numb. With the decision to give up, a dark period started for me: I became angry. Not only angry but vengeful. Not only did I give up on my family and academic life, but all aroun...